reunions, schmeeuions

last night was my 10 year high school reunion. i'm sure a lot of planning went into it, but i thought it kind of sucked. it wasn't so much that the people made the night awful, it was a combination of the price to attend, the location, and the food. it was nice to meet up with a few people i hadn't seen in a while, but at a place in the middle of nowhere? i swear i was driving to get murdered just to get there. thank god for kim and irene, who let me drive along with them. otherwise, i would have gotten really lost and killed.

i don't know about the other people who attended, but i was pretty disappointed. of course, i was also nervous to even be there, so much so that i think i talked a big mess--trying to make jokes, cussing up a storm, being loud, (actually admitting that i did data entry!) and also being mean. somehow, i get like that when i'm nervous. i'm trying to work on it, but, as anyone sitting next to me could agree, i have a lot of work to do. i should have totally worked on being a better person, but up until this afternoon, i didn't want to go. i agonized over it...i was torn: go and waste $40 or stay home and wonder if i should have gone? in the end, i went because irene called me about it, and i then had the option of arriving with at least one person i knew, and would then be saved the embarassment of walking in alone, and not recognizing the people already there, or having to stand all by myself until erwin arrived to ignore me by opting to instead entertain people for about two hours. (and only when 1/10th of the original crowd remained would he then talk to me. happens every time, but i'm to blame, because i let it happen; however, i did bring it up with him yesterday , which might have pissed him off, or made him aware--i don't know what--which might then explain the two huggish-type gestures he gave to me before i left.)

i really did enjoy seeing irene, kim, lawrence, jaya, carey, and nataki. many people i wanted to see weren't there (stephen tang, rifi, lu ren, priya nair, james franks, annie wu, tracey su, kafi spinks...), which was lame, but to the people i did see, it was good to see you.